I'm in a rush because I only have 20 minutes computer time haha and well, I still need to study but I want to make a journal for the mixed emotions I felt since yesterday 8D

I know I'm a confused and denial-prone person yet I have NO IDEA...why it amuses me to continue acting like so XD I once again thought to myself awhile ago, that the ME would snap back at the person for saying annoying words and for physically hurting me, but what I did was just laugh and act like it didn't cause me any pain

Weird thing, anybody who hurts me should have a little expectations of getting a tear or revenge from me

VIOLENCE IS NEVER AN OPTION FOR ME

Maybe it's just me being me but I actually hate people who loves to make others feel small despite the person being a total loser himself...I have a good reason to agree that harassment and violation is very sinful and must be prevented...because I have seen friends who suffer and it only makes me pity them

I HATE PITY

yes, pity may lead you to helping the scorned and needy, but there are times that you have to leave them BECAUSE THEY NEED TO GROW UP

Not that we are required to mature quickly, but what is being mature? I think it may mean being independent and responsible of one's self. Independence is most definitely not cowering in a corner and waiting for someone to save you! It's not complaining about things you lack and blame others, it's not like they would care about you so much that they would give you everything when you don't deserve it! THINK FIRST!How misfortunes and bad luck have you ever had?

Now, how many blessings had been given to you?

And how many people are actuall siffuering out there? Before thinking of only yourself, make sure you know how to appreciate what you have know...If you want more, then work for it with your own true self and not sit around doing nothing useful
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Actually I made this journal thinking about a chat I had with a person I care for and I am now practically killing myself internally for letting him go again when he said he...ahh never mind just crazy school life I wat to avoid

and also to the victims in news I heard that made me want to have super powers again haha

Night~ Life had been awesome, I'm sure it'll always be but I think i need to plan ahead again, and erase some bad habits such as facepalms